pheww.. sry for not updating again =p

PHEW.. everyone~!!!! especially GEO.. haha im back im back finally =p so pai seh leh promised to update but i didnt do it haha..
miss everyone of u.. let me fast fast finished my exam..
come look for u all XD

okie about me..
i juz back from hong kong.. omg.. i not yet blog about it..
it is so much to blog.. lol giv me more time haha
but there is some picture over my frenster profile..
go look at it n giv some comment~!

okie and i admit i seldom find u all out.. awww so sry..
nowadays keep hang wif leslie oni.. until ppl tot she is my bf?
LOL and zi yen.. lol she starting to be one of my mate now?
alright.. im somehow going into different gang?
lol but dun wry.. im coming back dude..! haha

these day nothing new.. mostly stay at home.. keep zzzzzz...
keep going wif my part time piano teaching.. enjoy wif my students..
busy planning church's youth christmas presentation..
spending time wif all my mate n deariesss~~
spend some money on my doggie, spiky.. aww pk le me.. lol
or juz watched some tap dance concert on last last friday..
watched charity show by china disabled person at klcc on last last sunday..
watched harmonica concert last sunday also..
lol.. can say alot a.. been to many place.. but not shopping..
honestly, last week i keep my clothes cupboard, i move out at least 20-30 old shirt~!
then i put all my new shirt in.. my cupboard FULL again lol..
i see also wan vomit edi..
will stop buying for now ... haha
how can i resists ya?
many ppl asked me that..
plz dun request an answer from me.. lol

alright.. i hav to stop now
coz i noe all the while im juz crapping.. haha
let me say it more when i rmb more..
see ya all..
will miss u all dearie much~!

very happy XD

very happy XD

juz telling all of u

i very happy XD

juz for keeping my blog up to date

i very happy XD

haha.. but ntg special for me to write..
zzzzzzz... continue when i think of sumthing XP

interesting n tired day

today i went lowyat bought a mic n isa bought a webcam..
in the mean while.. we get to know a guy that working there.. forget wats his name haha
then he is real gud.. help us test our mic n webcam.. n get us a cheap n nice 1.. haha
so nice of him.. then we joke alot.. he very swt of me n isa lol
it is because when he intro webcam to isa.. one is not movable.. one is flexible to adjust left n rite .. then isa said suddenly.. "OH LEFT N RIGHT IS SO IMPORTANT FOR ME!!" haha cause she wan her best angle show up in her webcam lol the guy is juz like.. SWT lol..

then my turn to test the mic.. he ask me why dun i get head phone.. coz i asking him to intro me a small stereo mic like ear phone n small mic.. i wan come together wan..
then i said because head phone may make me look not nice XP haha he juz like omg.. swt again lol.. so i wanna get something that not easy to be seen.. can hide hahaha..

then at the end we exchange our msn mail add as he wants.. lol dun mind coz he nice to talk wif.. n he gave us his number .. asked us to call him whenever we come to lowyat.. he will giv us some discount .. lol how nice is him! haha

so after that me n isa go to swim at nite.. wauuu suddenly my swimming skil improve so much.. isa n me was so surprised lol.. dunno wat happen to me.. i can swim easily. but juz my stamina not enuff haha.. nvm i will train it.. that is why i swim so much tonight.. make my hand n leg muscle so pain.. haha now still pain.. awwwww... but it was so fun XD

haha then back home spend time in msn.. so happy XD

alright.. is so late but still i heard thunder.. i better go slp.. gud nite everyone ^^

oh ya i will try singing in meetoto.. if anyone of u got play.. tell me haha im a new user there.. see ya

im back everyone!!

promised update regularly!!
frens dun worry.. who i am now.. im really happy these day..
because i have someone besides me.. n also frens ^^
hmm these day i hav to pay more attention more n more in my studies..
n my days is full wif love wif all of u n my dear .. i felt glad..
thx for someone who leave comment here..
although said my blog is rust.. but at least u do care of my blog haha
continue reading it ok..
i will be updating more n more

okie these day.. i hang out wif isa.. new frens..
trying to search for many things to improve my skin
and it does really worked! haha
my skin r so smooth now.. improved alot..
wan any consultation of ur skin?
ask me.. free of charge.. LOL

and im a new melody.. alwayz updating alwayz improving
alwayz the new one!! hehe
thanks God, for giving me this happiness from him.. muax

sickness in me

im full wif sickness and pain-ness!!!!! GOD plz help me! stop my pain.. stop my sick.. take off my sickness..!!!!!!! frenssss... plz pray for me.. i really need a healthy body to prepare my final exam.. plz plz.. if not, kill me bah.. sob sob..

frusfrating, annoying.. cannot sit cannot stand.. cannot sleep well for few nites..
angry.. sad.. cry.. emotional me.. moody me..

SOB

pissed off vs appreciation

omg!!! oh shit damn.. wat a bloody fellow really pissed me off.. supposingly i can be patient on this kind of persons.. treat as my frens.. but he really disappoint me..

nowadays i knew alot of frens.. new frens.. or getting back wif old frens.. getting more time wif my frens.. getting more close.. i enjoyed.. we enjoyed.. we love in.. at first.. i tot everyone is really sincere to be my fren.. but now i really cannot tahan edi.. sum of them r so fcuk off.. they even dunno wat they are who they are.. but the finger alwayz pointing to others.. i hav no patient to say this story out.. but it really once again prove me that.. they r ppl who come to me because of my appearance.. i dun nid this kind of frens man.. i tot i can accept all kind of frens.. becoz i really love to makes frens.. omg.. now they make me thinks that there is alwayz a boundary.. dun blame me for that.. juz blame this world got this kind of ppl..

but luckily.. there is some frens that r really sincere being frens together.. we share alot we laugh we cry.. i love it.. thanks fren.. without u all.. i dunno how could i survive after all this.. u all really made my day!

here to say all my coursemate.. especially georyn, ashley n wan xin.. my ji mui in college.. we shared alot n talked alot.. i really love them much.. so touched.. they really care me alot..

and my best fren.. isabella.. she is here whenever i need her.. she could spare her many times to accompany me n support me.. thanks isa!
and lou yao wey yew.. at my very first hard period.. is him who accompany for few days! thanks!

and my other frens... i love u all!! especially to eric.. jun hong [ wont be ash's bf =p ].. blury.. martin [dk].. my pet bro.. my churchmate..!! thanks to all!!

i really had a hard period last days.. but u all filled my times.. brought me up.. support me.. cheers me up.. i love u all!! muaxx mel will alwayz appreciate it!

i really enjoyed my days so much.. as i edi improved myself alot.. i love myself more n more.. dun worry frens.. XD

oh ya lastly.. my family.. thanks daddy mummy n my dearest brother.. he so sayang me edi XD

hmm these day.. i m quite busy wif fren's burfday.. exams.. classes.. stresses... haha anyway.. pray for me plz.. so i can goes smoothly in everything.. my life was wonderful but juz lack of money nowadays LOL i will blog more next time ^^ trying to get back my habit haha..

end.

i should update bloggie edi ^^

arlo.. everyone.. im very gud here ^^ worrying bout my studies.. something.. like that lar.. but everyday also filled wif happy =p nice leh hahaha

so happy..my fren still rmb me.. still will remind me to update my blog haha.. okie.. hmm.. these day.. im quite busy.. coz of practising table tennis for competition this sat.. then hang outs wif fren.. take dinner wif frens.. this week is very wonderful weeks.. so fullfilled.. haha.. not oni coz of that.. also coz of a person who stay wif me alwayz.. n didnt leave me alone when i was so bored.. laugh wif me.. sad wif me.. talk wif me.. crazy wif me.. bin tai wif me.. hahaha these day oni slept average 4 hours a day.. becoz of him =.=" hahaha

these day i went back home quite late.. coz of table tennis practise n took dinner wif frens.. stay at college for fun also haha.. so mou liu rite =p very happy that.. these days i knew alot of new frens in college.. they r so frenly.. even as crazy as me.. we talk alot.. n crazy alot.. juz like secondary school that time.. haha miss it alot.. i felt that im so fullfilled these days.. mayb coz of his influence? haha coz he alwayz a busy guy.. i think i can find no one busier than him =.=" haha

i dunno why i will write about him edi lar.. hmm.. i felt happy to know him.. he influence me alot.. mostly in gud ways.. n i didnt expect that he also can be as crazy as i did lol.. but he easily get emo haha but i noe i can cheer him up =p suddenly abittttt proud of myself hahaha he is not a simple person.. but yet still nice ^^

very tired liau.. i continue tmr okie ^^

8th march
saturday,

suddenly i get a call.. is from isa.. she said she is driving to my house!!!!

haha im so excited coz she never drive me b4.. also first time heard her say she driving alone!!!

then we went out together.. she driving her sis's myvi.. we went to mid valley.. n there.. we also meet up our fren, ivan.. and also isa's fren ah fai.. haha we went kim gary yam cha wif ah fai.. this guy ah fai really damn funny.. at first not that familiar wif him.. both quite pai seh. but very soon we got many things to talk wif haha

sunday,

ah fai called isa n ask us out again.. waaa i so surprised.. tot wat he so free.. really come n fetch us go pyramid.. n mid valley again.. gosh.. im damn tired.. but nvm lar.. new fren ma.. im ok de haha anyway, is nice to know him... coz we hav many things in common to talk haha..

yesterday,

monday, 10th march,

isa called me n said she very boring n wanted to go out.. waa im so tired these day.. never really rest.. keep going out.. then at last we decided go to the eye of msia n have a ride.. coz didnt went there b4.. so i ask leslie, wei luck, evard together.. we 5 crazy fren go have a ride there =p it was quite boring if u went alone or wif someone u not really close.. but it was damn interesting coz i went wif 4 of my crazy fren!! haha.. we decided not to disturb wey yew coz i noe he is having his exam this week.. haha but lou yao, we will go together there again ok =p

5 of us!!
this is when we riding.. very high ah .. at first quite scary de..but used to it edi haha

3 big big guy =p actually is 2 oni.. can u spot the 2? hahahaha

me and wei luck ^^

me n wen jun (evard) ^^

this is when the show is begin.. hmm how to say leh.. the show is showing on the lake water.. haha u will understand i noe.. lol sry for my poor description..

so after the trip there.. we went setapak there n hav a drink.. we went to a place that we hav to take out our shoe.. n go in sit down on the floor n drink haha.. quite nice environment.. hmm got piano n guitar n alot cards game there.. we play uno card game.. n i play the piano also haha.. pai seh.. anyway, is really happy that nite ^^

half day trip @ inti, nilai

5th march,

today hav something weird happened.. but at last it is all overcome.. so after that incidents.. isa suggest that we went to inti nilai n pay a visit of our fren n also c the model searching contest[final] held there.. so i juz drive n pick up isa.. then we hit to inti..

when we arrive there, we went to our fren's hostel.. haha i really first time went there.. giv me a syok.. i wasnt noe there is like a small city.. i tot is juz a very normal campus over there.. but anyway, isa bring me n look around whole inti lor.. haha then really alot of shoplots there.. even many different restaurant, mamak, saloon, cybercafe.. alot.. oh gosh.. i really never expect i can see all this at there!! haha

so we went to have a drink wif frens also.. take a look on the model search contest.. waaa alot ppl queue there n waiting for entrance.. first time i feel that.. inti at nilai is look like a small city haha a private wan.. but is all youngster in that small city.. so cute haha.. they have their own life without tighthen up by their parents.. although the small city is surround by the jungle haha but it really not bad la.. especially u hav ur another half there n have ur couple sweet time there.. haha so sweet niahhhh..

so at nite.. isa said bring me a place that she went whenever she is sad.. actually is a place that is very bright but u can find no ppl there! haha.. we can play, crazy n shout watever we can there.. lol.. n at there we record few very funny n stupid video.. but i cannot show here.. coz is really stupid move we did there!! hahaha..

so after crazying at that place.. i meet up my fren, ivan there then we have a drink there lor.. me, isa n him also hav a nice chat together.. haha nice meeting anyway.. so after the meeting.. isa bring me in the hall see all those model in the contest.. waaa they really look great.. mayb they r not enuff pretty or handsome.. but their body was damn perfect!!! hahaha i goin to faint edi.. lol we juz shout like crazy.. so around 10:30pm.. we decided went back home lor.. ^^

mel playing piano [version 2]

hey.. i post my another two piano video up ya.. haha..

u all r so lucky..=p

but anyway, both playin got mistake la.. coz nervous ah.. pai seh

but juz i lazy play once again haha..

forgive me.. but trust me.. second part of the canon is nice.. ^^

so this is variation of canon in D in full version





this is jay- tui hou
nice? haha got mistake ah.. pai seh..
leave a comment for this post ya take care

mel's new life

haha long time didnt blog here uh!! anyway.. these day im so busy and also lazy haha thats why..
coz i keep emo for this few days.. so really thankful coz my fren are surrounded me.. they are here whenever i need them haha..

thursday, my bestie isa.. accompany me chat whole day lor.. then i kacau in her house LOL quite fun niah.. really thanks her for sparing her time n skip class coz of me lol..
since fri.. my few nice nice coursemate come my house pay a visit n accompany me.. until saturday, my lou yao wey yew sacrifies his whole day for me.. lol even come straight forward my house n find me from his uni tar setapak.. didnt even get back his house first lol.. im so touched man.. thanks lou yao!! so we spend times la.. went to his house kacau.. then go take lunch wif him then accompany him go cut hair lol.. i so gud leh!! lol no lar.. is we both too gud fren edi haha.. then after that.. we go find one more primary school fren.. long time nvr see him, his name is evard.. then we sampat at his house.. then go movie together.. haha im proud to have 2 of them as my personal bodyguard LOL.. after movie in mid valley, we went to happy garden n hav our dinner.. then go walk pasar malam.. then go back evard's house for ntg.. hahahaha i noe they juz wan accompany me la.. so pai seh =p really happy to hav all of them!! they really clear my backlogs.. lol

and ya.. i wanna say GRATZ to geo.. haha for wat? duwan tell u all lol.. geo u noe then can edi =p

okie continue..
then sunday, i went to church.. i was not feeling well.. coz of my stomach again.. but somehow.. i can hardly get over it.. dunno why.. keep feel like vomiting but not vomit anything.. then very hungry.. but dun feel like eat.. =.=" wa i damn worry myself that day haha but thanks God.. i went back to normal in the afternoon.. so after church, my churchmate invite me go hav a drink wif them.. haha so we go ss2 hav a drink lor.. matthew is treating us drink coz his burfday on 29.2.2008 juz passed.. got reason to treat huh haha he is only 5 years old now.. [20yrs /4] LOL then after that.. matthew fetch me back home lor.. we talk alot on the way back haha

so today, monday, i went to coll early in the morning.. n i struggle so hard to wake up early in the morning lol.. but i have a gud mood today haha.. so i talk alot wif geo today.. then my coursemate who sit behind me.. keep taking my hair to do many style.. experiments mayb? haha so fun la.. i dun mind de anyway.. it juz will make me feel fun haha..

then anyway, these day i online at nite.. i really noe alot new frens.. feel happy to know them.. some even very nice to talk wif.. haha i even met back my old fren in msn haha some even play music for me through the webcam and skype.. it really cheer me alots!! LOL is my honoured to hav them as my fren hehe.. even gud fren.. im not alone ^^ thanks God..

mel playing piano

this is my playin of canon in different version.. only half of it!! haha lazy record so long.. somemore i cant memorized the song.. pai seh haha..

i love this song so much.. thats why.. i post it here.. hehe pai seh.. this video may not that perfect... but really i played wan ah!! haha is the first time i post up my video!!!

all my blogger fren.. u all so lucky huh =p

this is the song of one hong kong drama series.. i love this song..

i play wif very simple n clear cut.. haha i like this feeling..

hope u all enjoy it ya ^^

these days....

my chinese new year,

i went back to hometown celebrating chinese new year wif relative.. we eat together.. went to church together.. ntg more.. but at nite.. we, cousin.. play cards game together.. but not gamble.. is juz who lose.. who drink .. haha thats all.. and it is really fun..!! after we finished the liquor.. then we decided.. who lose.. who do those stupid action.. haha but i nvr lose.. my few cousin sis keep losing.. then do those stupid action like.. stand on chair and sing national song loudly, use mouth pick the leaf on tree, use butt to write words.. haha alot la so funny

so the third day of cny.. we went back kl.. at nite we reached.. and i take back my spiky from dk's house.. haha i miss spiky so much!!

cny day 8,

today is valentine day, i went out wif isa, kuan lee and yih fan.. we had our lunch at one utama and we had a shopping.. after finished shopping at 1u.. then we went to the curve and shop again lol.. yih fan was so tired to follow us coz she not use to it haha.. but me n isa n kuan lee is a very hyperactive shopper.. so we get used to it alwayz haha..

this day is known as day for "bai tian gong" so i as a christian.. my family didnt do this thingy.. so my lou yao yew, ask me n isa along to his house for a party held b4 bai tian gong..
we went there and have a gud dinner.. yew's mom really can cook so well.. we ate so much there.. after that, here comes lion dance in yew's house.. waa i really first time watch the lion dance so near and so details.. haha i ask isa n yew alot bout that.. lol.. wondering ma.. anyway, we enjoyed that nite.. u can see the pic on yew's blog about cny.. can see his link on my fren link list.. weyyew ^^
thx him so much ah.. giving me so good's nite on valentines day haha..

fren's gathering at my house,

one day.. me, yew, isa planned to go visit wei luck's house.. so we go SS2.. wei luck house and meet him.. but he not at home that time..!! so we went to take dinner in swensen first!! haha
then wei luck meet us there and we order the earthquake ice-cream and share.. so damn nice.. haha after that, we went to his house and take ang pao haha.. then they decided go to my house and hav fun.. coz alwayz oni me cannot go back so late.. haha

so we play games, card games, drink hard liquor, take many photo, lol very stupid de la.. haha but we nvr gamble la.. all so gud fren.. juz who lose who drink haha.. then at first all so clear minded.. after drinking, yew n isa almost gone drunk lol.. luckily is wei luck who driving.. so we shout there.. although is at mid nite.. we laugh.. haha until 2am+++ oni they go home.. so pity.. i hav to wake up at 7am on the next day for church!! haha


ahhhhh sry everyone.. too long nvr blog.. dunno wat to write for last days.. haha so i stop here la.. promise i will update regularly..!! oh ya.. during cny, my bro gifted me a laptop =p im so happy haha..

say "HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR" ^^

friday,

college start holidays for cny edi..!! so leslie called me n said she is on leave today.. coz today is kl city day.. haha so she fetch me and isa along.. and wanted to hit to mid valley.. but on the way going, isa and leslie also say wan go time square.. i said.. i went there yesterday edi =.=" but they still instead of go.. wat to do.. majority win haha.. hmm.. there is ntg new in time square.. i quite boring actually.. but shop wif the two soh poh.. haha not bad la lol..

saturday,

i woke up very late..!! coz i sleep late..!! i everynite also play audition..!! haha.. wake up liau then watch hong kong drama.. then play audition again lol.. i love this game so much.. my avatar getting more pretty and prettier..!! haha
then at nite, went walk walk wif parents lor.. become guai guai lui haha.. they happy then i happy lor ^^

sunday,

woke up very early..!! go to church..!! haha ntg new la.. after church.. got one siu mui mui.. chooi yen =p haha she came to my house la.. sampat here and there.. lol but was fun la haha.. at nite i dunno i going wat liau.. i lazy to think back lol.. why i feel that.. im writing my daily report? hahahaha

monday,

i went to pyramid wif isa.. haha pyramid again.. lol but we not bored yet.. haha still enjoyed shopping.. but this time.. is isa who bought alot..!! haha im glad i didnt use any of my money lol..

tuesday,

uh.. tomolo i going back to hometown lor.. around 7am then hav to wake up liau sob sob.. but im not feeling sleeping so early yet.. and i didnt pack my things yet..!! omg haha..
im so sad leh.. coz i miss spiky so much.. i cant bring spiky back to hometown wif us =.=" so i hav no choice to put him in my ex-bf house lor.. but he is spiky's daddy also.. is his responsible..!! haha.. juz now.. i was so sad to leave spiky to him.. is not i dun trust him.. is i miss spiky very much =.=" sob sob.. wan cry edi.. suddenly my house became so quiet uh.. but nvm.. i will take back spiky when im back from hometown..!! haha and i saw.. my ex-boy really thin edi.. ahh so sam thong haha.. he said he is very busy of his work.. i understand lar.. so i ask him to take care lor.. anyway.. this month is his last month working in his company.. from next month onwards.. he is coming out to built a business wif his fren.. so.. i'll pray for him.. and wish him luck!! gambateh martin..!! haha he dun get more thin then i happy edi lol

juz now uh.. a fierce and scary women get angry..!! dunno wat's wrong wif her.. mayb is "geng nian qi" =.=" but i tot her "geng nian qi" already finished? hahahaha she is alwayz that weird.. wat to do.. she is my mom haha.. she coz of cannot find a dvd.. then get angry and scold scold scold.. me n daddy also keep quiet and let her scold alone..!! haha me n daddy's patient so good leh..!! alwayz de..!! haha then she scold until my room.. and keep scold.. arhh.. i cant stand it edi.. so i tell her.. can u stop scolding? it is so annoyed..!! dun put ur angriness on me..!! and also daddy..!! hahahaha then i dun care her edi.. lol

okie la.. until here.. im still that happy eh =p happy new year everyone..!!

it is me on sunday ^^ smile after crying.. hehe smile wif a tear inside my eyes ^^ saw? haha yeah.. something make me heart broken on sunday.. but that is all past ^^juz show u all this precious photo man.. haha nice? bluek..

monday,

i wake up late.. and miss the class aiks.. coz whole nite i have been coughing non stop.. sob sob.. and make me miss my class =.=" stupid sick.. go out from my body..!! haha and.. wat to do.. i juz slack around at home on monday ^^ but did go supermarket wif dad.. buy something for new year ^^

tuesday,

i went to class as normal.. after class.. i feel so boring and moody.. but suddenly i saw blury at college.. then she ask me hang out wif him lor.. so she drive to my house and play play piano.. i teach her one short short song lor.. then she is so nice that day.. she fetch me go pyramid.. somemore treat me eat "sweet sweet" haagen dazs.. haha im so happy.. yeah, she said de.. dun so sad.. so muz eat sweet sweet =p haha

look nice uh? haha the chocolate is damn tasty man.. D.E.L.I.C.I.O.U.S. delicious..!! haha make me eat until so happy =p uhuh.. love u blury.. hahaha somemore she say im the first one eat this wif her worrrr.. although she ajak so many fren come to eat b4.. but im the one she brought me there worrr =p haha so i have to feel proud uh? or glad? lol.. anyway, thanks..!!

wednesday,

after my afternoon class.. once again i saw blury at college.. she is standing on the main entrance there.. look like thinking something.. stand there like soh poh.. then i mar go ask her wat happen lor.. then she say.. she is here thinking.. whether wanna stay back for basketball later =.=" im speechless ah.. she is so funny.. wat to do.. haha i accompany her walk around at college.. go see the valentine message board in my college..

and then i saw a msg..!! is for mel mel..!! but i dunno whether is for me ><>

but it is ok.. it make me so happy although i dunno whether izzit for me.. haha coz is my name mel mel.. and somemore.. my new hairdo.. =.=" mayb got other person so similar wif me? haha who noes man.. but nvm.. i still wrote a msg for my fren.. coz i know.. in this hard period.. my fren really support me alot.. do help me alot ^^ and somemore u saw wat i wrote?

"i write here juz to make myself happy!!!" hahahaha

and u know wat.. i told blur.. im so sad man.. then she giv me this msg..!! haha thanks her so much la.. make me so happy =p

so after that, i accompany her go buy some drinks and DONUTS.. haha she said she have to eat donuts only will happy =p haha oh blury, u r same wif me edi.. so emo =p

after that, i went back first lor.. coz also around the time she have to go play basketball..

at nite, im so emo leh.. i tried to call him but make myself hurt oni.. he also dun need my help.. he also wont listen to my words.. hehe nvm lar.. i have to accept it.. hence, i tell myself.. dun call him anymore edi ^^

thursday,

is today oh..!! hehe.. i wake up late again.. my class at 8am.. i reached at 9am.. luckily lecturer not angry wif that.. because she know im sick.. honestly.. i didnt sleep the whole nite.. i watch the time.. 1 hour 1 hour like that.. so suffer.. some more raining so heavily at mid nite.. time goes, at least i can get to sleep for a while.. but sleep until 8am.. i can't even remember when is my alarm ringing =.=" so pai seh.. so today finished class.. me n my classmate still stay in the class waiting the class rep bring us the notes.. so.. since ntg to do.. we take picture =p

why am i look like.. dying de? hahaha anyway, nice picture of us ^^

anyway, after that.. me and ash and wan xin and ks.. went to sgwang and time square to have a walk.. haha dunno why go there.. for syok oni.. lol.. we have our lunch there.. and we shop there.. gosh.. the clothes there all so lala.. we give up..!! lol.. so when we planning to go back.. we pass by a shop.. which is selling those weird weird clothes.. today is the shop's members day.. gosh.. in front of the shop.. i saw this gang of gurls.. haha i think is all gurls.. all wear until.. lol YENG..!! like lollita? haha dunno.. i love their hair style man.. haha

anyway, everyone came to take picture wif them.. haha they really daring.. if i got chance.. i may have a try? lol no way mayb.. coz they are all so thin =.=" im not..!! haha sob..

so.. after all the laughter.. we heading back home lor.. but wan xin and ks will stay there until nite.. pak tor ma =p haha.. thx ash for fetching me go and back lor..!! hehe

my fri, sat and sunday

hmm.. quite some day never write blog ^^ these few day pass as usual.. sometimes happy sometimes sad.. hehe ntg much to say about it.. coz mostly the same haha..

hmm on fri.. i went movie wif my coursemate and also other frens.. it is so surprised and nice that sky [my churchmate] follow us to movie too ^^ we watch sweeney todd together.. haha it is such a horror movie.. disgusting.. but it is also a musical movie.. i wasnt know that.. johnney deep can sing such well.. ^^ so after the movie.. we went for a walk.. still at pyramid ^^ we chit chat.. haha.. after my coursemate went back.. me n my other fren walk around.. suddenly we saw hitz.fm car is outside the pyramid.. in front of sunway lagoon.. those crew are there to play some fun games wif ppl.. so me and isa go join them too..!! haha.. we play some lame game.. answer those lame question.. lol damn lame man.. somemore im wearing skirt while playing those lame game.. haha is incovenient but we enjoyed it ^^

after that.. we went back home lor.. hehe it is a tired day on friday..

saturday,

i spend most of my day at home..!! wat else uh =p hehe

sunday,

i went to church, yeah im so moody today.. but i juz cant control it.. coz something happened and distract my small little heart haha.. anyway.. it is past.. not nice to mention too ^^ i juz know i have to live stronger and stronger.. i muz be tougher and tougher ^^ God will bless me, i trust in Him ^^ thanks God..

so, tomolo morning class again.. dun feel like sleeping so early.. but i hav to uh.. >< wat to do.. haha

~end~

a happy beginning or ending?

hmm.. now is around 11:30am.. later going to watch movie wif frens ^^

on wed nite,

i suddenly feel very moody and miss him.. so i called him.. he is in his fren's house for burfday party.. but then he still talk wif me.. im appreciate it.. he sacrifies whole nite for his fren and juz oni talk to me for the whole nite.. so we talked about our past.. our decision of breaking up.. anyway, it is long story.. there have tears and smiles in the conversation.. but it ends wif laugh ^^ so through the talk on the phone, we had fully settled about our relationship.. we already broke up.. and dun put any hope on the relationship.. it will juz hurting ourselve.. so we be back very good fren and im so happy coz we can talk so well now.. he treat me good too ^^
so now, wat happen in the future.. thats not our rights to control.. juz depends.. if really fated.. we will come together again ^^

on thus,

i slept very late coz of talking in phone wif him.. but then i woke up around 6 something.. coz 8am got class.. haha thinking of not going to class.. but then i still.. force myself to go..!! haha so after class.. ash and wan xin stay back and have a chit chat wif me lor.. haha so nice.. so at nite, i brought patrick [my fren juz back from overseas] go nite market lor.. so pai seh i didnt bring money that nite.. and he treats me everything haha.. he is my very good fren lar.. can share wif him alot ^^

so after nite market, i went back home.. soon, i received a call from dk.. and he is outside my house giving me something.. so i hug spiky together and go outside my house lor.. we sit in his car and talk talk talk lor.. haha very fun leh.. im so happy.. so we share alot things that time, he share wif me about his work, family, frens and everything.. and me too lor.. so we all know everything about each other ^^ hehe spiky too very happy lor.. get to see his daddy =p so after that, my parents come back.. also saw me sitting on his car and talk.. but then i tell myself i shud let them know i got this fren.. so i open the window of his car and tell my mom later only i come in house.. i talk wif my fren first.. so my mom also didnt do any respond.. no scolding also.. so i quite happy.. and i know i shud do that.. and i know.. my ex-boy is so happy for that too ^^ i tell myself, i duwan scare my mom edi.. i shud started to something to get more freedom.. haha

anyway, have to prepare for movie later edi.. so thats all i juz wan to say.. i feel so happy.. everything settle.. me and my family's relationship also very good nowadays.. mayb i keep accompany them these day lor ^^ thanks God.. so, i think, this is a very happy beggining for me to get a new life ^^

yday [sat] i was too lazy to go out edi.. haha mayb went out too much last few days.. so i get very tired.. and rather stay at home and watch drama.. haha but when i watch until very sien.. i called my ex-boy and ask whether can i go take things from him that time.. and he say ok.. so i go lor.. purposely go his working place and take things from him.. but i did bring my doggie spiky along lar.. hehe can accompany me mar.. somemore can let my ex-boy see see his son [spiky] ma hehe..

so we got talk a while in my car.. and play wif spiky.. both of us talking quite happy lor.. hehe and he laugh on my hair..!! then i cubit him =p but i knew he know that i do this also got coz of him lor.. hehe coz he last time alwayz ask me go make curl and try haha.. now i did.. but he is not my boy anymore.. sob.. hmm.. at last.. i got ask him about me n him.. coz actually we didnt really sit down and say clearly.. so i wan to know something from him.. but we didnt manage to talk much also.. and he went back to work =)

so i drive home myself wif spiky besides me lor.. spiky really cheers me up so much haha.. he is damn cute.. standing on the sit and looking outside the window.. so funny.. so when i reached home.. i called my ex-boy again and ask for a talk on today.. but on the phone.. he told me many things.. hmm so as he dunno how to talk.. so we didnt meet up today also.. after yday the phone.. we settled alot doubts and other prob.. so i very sure that.. the only prob [for now] is he wants to work hard for his career.. and he ask me to giv him time.. so from yday onwards.. i tell myself not to find him alwayz.. coz i know he need a break alone.. but anyway, im still ok ^^

alright, today [sunday].. i went to church early in the morning.. and then go back home and take a nap.. at evening, i went out wif my parents lor.. shopping ah.. bought a very nice dvd player.. and also something for me lor [i ask for de] haha.. and then we go take our dinner lor.. gosh, so full.. i alwayz tell myself not to eat until 100% full.. but i still did.. sob sob.. =.="

aiks, i juz get a bad news from a net fren.. she said one of our net fren, chin marwick, juz passed away last monday.. his name is so familiar for me.. and then i rmb.. is him.. i knew him many years ago.. and we chated b4.. we joke.. he is nice to joke wif.. somemore asked me out for a drink b4.. but i nvr get to go out wif him.. but so sudden.. he juz left us coz of his illness.. and i nvr know that he got that serious illness.. hmm.. it really make my mood down ler.. but i'll really pray for him, for God plz bless his soul and may let him rest in peace..

sincerely..

i dye my hair =p

LOL today i and isa go buy hair colour and dye for each other.. haha.. we went to pyramid.. meet up my ex-coursemate for a while.. then we go buy those things lor.. for my new hair haha.. so i bought golden brown colour..

so when get back my home.. isa dye for me first.. then i dye for her.. for the first time i dye for ppl..!! haha but she is quite pro la.. so after it.. wat makes us surprised and disappointed is.. our hair have not much diff after dye.. but juz the new born hair get dye.. those black hair not really hav diff.. so it look weird at first.. i tot.. OMG i have to spend to go saloon to dye..

but luckily.. at nite.. it look much more better.. the colour became very different.. very nice.. i mean.. is not whole hair that colour.. but it looks like highlight and it looks gud ^^ so luckily.. hav no regret and makes my hair more special haha.. but however, my hair still having browny colour now ^^ so happy.. finally i finished up wif my hair.. and wish will get a very nice hair for cny ^^

actually i do so much.. is to upgrade myself for sure.. haha geting prettier will getting happier LOL.. but and also.. i do.. improving myself.. to wait the one i love so much but not degrading myself haha.. anyway, i wish he know.. im waiting him come back to me wif his success ^^ and let me be his pretty pretty wife.. haha =p i wont give up.. i'll still pray.. i'm still loving him =)

i perm my hair =.=" omg

this is before..

this is after.. izzit nicer? =p

so called.. "princess curl" hair? haha

i went to swimming yday.. hehe finally i can swim properly..!! haha not much energy la.. but still can swim for a short distance hehe.. at least the feeling is right..!! but then my hand.. pain again the muscle.. sob sob..

haha today.. thurs, 17 jan, i did digital perm to my hair =.=" omg yday nite cant sleep well coz of keep thinking how will it be.. then today, after my morning class.. i went to a saloon and did digital perm.. =.=" this is the first time in my life i did it.. gosh, at first.. i saw the result.. i can't even accept my hair =.=" mayb is first time.. not used to.. alwayz used to rebonding for straightening.. so now.. totally different..!! @.@ haha sob la..

but then until now.. i feel my hair ok edi.. coz my fren n the hair stylist also say my hair will getting nicer.. i mean the curl will getting nicer after few weeks.. so no choice.. i have to wait haha.. but my hair not that worst la.. juz ppl and also i not used to it.. is quite nice actually.. tight up the hair.. or add a hair band on my hair.. really feel nice.. look like princess la haha.. so cannot regret la.. at least i have tried this.. lol anyway.. i feel myself so fresh now.. cause of having different look..!! haha i love it..

so.. wish on chinese new year.. i will get my hair nicer n nicer and have a happy new year =p hehe

anyway, these two days.. i miss my ex-boy so much.. alwayz wanted to call him and talk to him.. but alwayz when i call him.. he also ntg to talk to me.. yet.. i feel so sad.. hehe but wat to do.. i wish to be his very gud fren.. stay besides him and share wif him.. but he looks like duwan to tell me anything.. hehe how gud if he know i still miss him so much.. how gud if he know he still have position in my heart ^^

i having normal days

haha few day i didnt blog.. hmm.. coz quite addicted to audition online game.. hehe gosh.. tot wanna study.. and now? games =.=" sob sob..

these day ntg much happened.. i went college as usual.. went back home and have some rests.. hmm mayb these few day i will go to do up my hair lor.. hehe plan to do up curl.. pk edi =( but for cny.. for myself.. i shud spent for it =.= my parents have some prob lately and can't even support me oh =( sob sob again..

hmm juz yday.. mayb i have food poisoning.. vomit few times edi lor.. so scare have to go hospital.. but luckily it became ok after few vomit whole nite =( quite sad actually.. no one knows.. and vomit alone.. dunno who to tell my sickness, sadness and loneliness ~sob sob~

i have to get gud health for my days.. ^^ although the days is tough.. but i will still walk.. hehe i so wish to have someone besides me.. even yesterday i dream.. also i dream that "someone" is there back to me and walk wif me.. but i know i juz dreaming oni hehe.. but also not bad la.. can say is a great dream for me for these day =)

third day of swimming - muscle started pain =(

early in the morning.. around 8 something.. i woke up and fetch yunn and we go swim again haha.. sleep until blur blur.. luckily there is sunny day.. not so cold haha.. but when we reached there.. omg.. the pool water is so cold..!! somemore i dunno swim properly yet.. how i warm up myself? haha so i juz can stay there and freezing.. =.="

so today finally i can master mostly about the swimming style.. i can swim.. started to know how to breath while swimming.. but still cannot swim that far.. a while then muz stand up.. coz mayb i first time swim properly.. not used to the tiredness of swimming.. hehe so i muz train my energy..!! haha

so after swim.. we went one utama and have a walk.. suppose to accompany yunn and look for her chinese new year clothes.. but in the end.. i bought a shirt.. and she didnt buy anything haha but she said she remember wat she wants to buy next time.. coz she didnt bring enuff money =.=" haha so we went genki sushi to have our very late lunch lor..

after that.. we both back home lor.. both edi very tired.. haha i more tired.. coz my muscle started to pain when shopping.. but now.. already pain-ing =.=" haha after me, my parents back from carrying many big bag of goods.. i was so surprised.. only i know they went shopping.. they bought a 32'inch LCD tv.. change my comp cpu.. bought digital cam =.=" bought the wireless house phone.. coz last time the phone kena electric shock haha.. they also bought a big double bed for brother.. but not me.. sad.. and also bought a 2GB pen drive for me.. a very nice keyboard and mouse [ a set ] for me =.=" huaaa i ask.. wat happened to them.. suddenly so good buy so many things oh.. haha im so excited.. how long i didnt saw them shopping like that?? gosh haha but actually is cause my comp and our tv broke down.. =.=" so they have a very heavy shopping juz now.. haha i so wish to get a laptop..!! but sure will killed them.. but wat to do.. keep quiet lor haha..

juz now i received a e-mail about the diamond water.. and it really states that the hong kong news had investigate about the diamond water and prove that the water is bad for human's kidney.. and the content of diamond water's advertisment is wrongly lead to customer for its products.. the information is not really correct.. there have a video in youtube to prove this statement too.. so i was thinking whether dk's family is using diamond water.. then i called him and tell him.. that time he is sleeping.. he said he very headache.. he said his family is using lor.. then i said.. the water is prove danger for health ler.. and ask him and his family be careful.. but he look like no respond.. haih although i felt disappointed.. but still.. so i put down the phone again..

i really do care about his health.. his family.. he also alwayz get very tired from his work.. suffer headache and stress.. actually im so worried of him.. but i dunno wat can i do.. i wan to share wif him and support him.. but look like he is not allow me to.. hmm it was juz my feeling.. cause everytime he like duwan to say much like that.. hehe fine ler.. i juz wish he alwayz be healthy.. cannot let anything happened to him.. dun keep any secret from me.. coz i duwan lose him juz like that.. i still love him.. i wish he know that.. =) i will alwayz pray for him ^^ and not miss.. myself, my family and my all dearly best fren besides me ^^

second day of swimming

today i went pyramid to meet up my last sems coursemate.. we miss each other alot alot..!! and also celebrate burfday and farewell for shing li.. our lovely fren.. hehe she is not going to study in sunway anymore.. hmm so they ate lunch at bbq plaza.. but i ate b4 come.. so i sit there and talk to them lor.. isabella at there also.. i fetch her de.. coz i promise to go shopping wif her today hehe.. so we spend an hour plus there.. laughing.. crapping.. taking photo haha.. it was nice..

so after the lunch.. we dismissed.. and ash and wan xin asking how am i feeling.. they both also worry of me for my breaking up wif my ex-bf.. so i tell them and explain to them.. and ask them dun worry lor.. but i know they still worry me very much.. hehe really nice to get caring from them.. love them so much..

so after that.. i continue shopping wif isa lor.. since we're already at pyramid.. so we went pyramid 2 and have a walk.. unexpected.. we bought quite alot things for new year.. damn pk edi >< haha so after that.. isa asked me go swim wif her.. so i promise her lor.. so we went back my home and change.. take our dinner.. then fetch isa back home take his swimming suit.. so we went to kelana jaya swimming pool lor.. haha the swimming pool really big.. first time going there.. but i was very happy.. coz at least i know how to swim edi..!! is swim based on my feeling but i wasnt know how i did that? haha but unfortunately.. i only can swim wif one deep breath.. but still dunno how to breath while swim.. haha frog style.. lol i wish tmr i can master it..!! cause we decide tmr morning go to summit 3k there swim lor hehe.. so excited..

actually.. when i was driving to kelana jaya.. i did call dk.. cause i was very curious to know how did he feel on my words yday.. but when he pick up the phone.. he act like normal like ntg.. still talk wif me normally.. so i didnt say much.. since he at mid valley wif his sis to repair their laptop.. so i better dun disturb lor then i close up the phone call.. but anyway.. i wish i can get through... i know is hard.. hehe.. but since he treating me like ntg.. how much i love him.. also mayb cant change the way he did.. hehe cheer up mel..

but im alwayz emo nowadays haha.. laugh and cry.. gosh man.. lack of tear later haha.. bb nitez

now i realized how sad am i

today, i can't wait to go out wif him at nite market.. waiting him come to my house.. i felt happy cause at last we got chance hang out..

unfortunately, i really hate myself for going out wif him tonight.. i juz went back home from nite market.. he fetch me back.. i cried.. no one knows..

juz now when he reached my house.. he come in and visit his son spiky.. after that.. he asked me bout customize frenster profile.. so we online at my comp and i explain everything to him.. we was happy.. playful.. wif each other.. and i somemore ask him to massage for me coz i teach him so many thing.. hehe so after that, we go to nite market lor..

on the way, we're in his car.. we still talk nicely.. quite happy.. although i cannot hold his hand like last time i did... but i tell myself to "tahan".. i have to =) so i joke wif him.. we have a gud talk while he is driving..

when we get down the car and walk to nite market.. we started feel strange.. we suppose to hold hand and walk like last time.. but now.. everything different.. although we walk together.. but feel like walking separately.. he walk in front of me.. im so sad to see his back.. but i ask myself to "tahan" again.. i have to face it.. i know.. so we juz walk and sometimes stop and buy some food.. but we didnt talk much.. im getting sad and sad.. nearly cry out.. but have to "tahan" again.. i tell myself muz be strong.. duwan to argue wif him anymore.. duwan to cry in front of him and beg him anymore.. nite market there are so crowded.. full wif ppl.. i saw everyone.. either is fren or couple.. they hold hand and walk so they wont get lost.. and i look at his back again.. i can't hold his hand.. can't even touch his hand.. again, i feel like crying.. but i have ntg can do.. but juz crying inside my heart..

after that, i choose to walk in front of him.. only i know.. no matter i walk in front or behind him.. the feeling was still same.. i walk behind him.. i saw his back and feel like crying.. i walk in front.. i cant even know what he is doing or feeling behind me.. again, i feel so hurt.. so disappointed.. all the way, i so wish at least he will hold my hand and walk in the crowd.. but he didnt.. whole nite.. he talk to me like ntg.. like very normal fren.. not even a gud fren.. the hurt is killing me.. i wish to be fainted.. why me and him became like this.. why.. but, i juz telling myself.. as long as he happy.. he wants to.. i will respect him.. so i still smile at him whenever looking at him juz now..

so we get into the car.. we started to eat our food.. and he suddenly said.. "u're independence.. but u're not strong enuff.. the way u walk.. like no direction.. if saw any "halangan".. u alwayz stop.. "
mayb he hate me for being so weak in this world.. anyway, im juz a gurl..
wat shud i say? i tell him.. "no one leads me.. even so many ppl there.. i walk until very san fu." but he dun have any feeling or respond at all.. my tears drop..cry.. but he cannot see cause is too dark in the car.. and somemore.. he dun even look on me nicely once.. mayb he wan me to know.. "sei sam" le..

i wan to tell him so much.. that i miss him.. i love him.. i wan to hold his hand.. im very sad.. i need him.. but i can't even speak out.. cause i tell myself dun say anything to ruin this situation.. again, i cry silently in my heart..

when reached my house.. i asked him whether can we talk talk a while more.. but he very fast telling me he have appointment wif frens.. he is rushing.. my heart feel more san fu.. but i have to "tahan".. i smile to him and look at him.. stare at him.. i have many words that i can't say out.. i smile to him.. but i cry in my heart.. then i ask him izzit anything to say? he say no.. and then i told him..
"im sad.. everything i do, juz wants u to be happy.. everything i did, juz because u will feel better.. all juz because i care for u.. but no one knows how i feel.. no one knows how suffer am i.. even you also dunno.. gud nite"

then i get down of his car..

i dunno after this.. will he still wan to face me and talk to me.. or mayb we will separate forever.. mayb he is not as sad as hurt as i.. mayb he wont love me this weak gurl anymore.. my hearts stop beeping for few second.. and i standing there wif my mind blank.. i cried.. getting loudly.. and loudly.. crying in my house ALONE again.. i know i have to use to it.. i know i hav to.. i know.... i tell myself.. plz forgive him.. for he is dunno he is hurting me badly.. mayb i shud take up the hurt myself.. but not let him hurt also.. as long as i know.. who do i really love.. as long as he know.. there is one gurl loving him so much.. i know mayb i should not ask for his love anymore.. im shame of myself.. for being so weak.. so sorry..

alwayz,
she had nitemare every nite.. she had fainted in her house.. she had crying million times alone in her room.. she had many things keep in heart that cannot express out.. all this while.. she is juz pretending.. even lie-ing herself.. so that she can live better and dun let frens worry.. but plz.. dun treat mel so "chan yan".. plz everyone.. im juz a gurl.. juz a gurl that wants love and care wif her.. she cant get it.. mayb no one knows.. cry.. again..

met up new frens at college^^

wednesday,

today i have f6 class held at lt4, as im thinking i will be alone there.. im abit worry.. but have no prob lar hehe but before that i already pray to God for giving me new fren and let me make myself comfort although others are all stranger for me..

so when i reached class, i call cici [yew's bro's gf] haha met up suddenly yday, the world is so small.. and she is in the same class wif me.. so cicic said they coming to class later.. so i waited inside the class.. alone.. sitting there playing games wif my handphone.. hehe then i saw a gang of cici and her frens came and she ask me to sit together wif them.. i was quite shy but i still smile wif them.. they smile to me too hehe.. im happy coz they are frenly enuff that make me feel so comfort.. so i think is 7 of them.. 5 gurls 2 guys.. at first i tot they are all younger than me.. but only i found out.. got 5 of them is same age wif me.. im so excited and heard that.. and they are very easy to get along ^^ hehe so happy.. so anyway, i have a gud started in f6 class wif a bunch of new frens ^^ wat to say? juz thanks God ohh haha..

so class dismissed early.. i went back home lor hehe.. have a lunch wif dad..
juz wanna tell all of you..

God really did something unexpected to me.. b4 college start.. im worrying of being alone there.. my classmate are all in different group wif me.. will left me alone in class.. and also i juz broke up wif my bf.. so at college or even at home or where.. i will feel much more lonely than last time.. i pray hard to God and tell Him all my needs.. i dun wan to be lonely.. i duwan to be sad sitting alone there and i duwan to feel strange towards everything around me.. i feel quite worry and scare to face it.. but i know i have to.. therefore.. wat God had gave me? He gave me my best fren to stay wif me and pass through the hardest time together wif me.. i get alot support from my frens.. they accompany me.. they cheer me up.. He somemore gave me a bunch of nice fren even in every class i attend..!! God really create miracle.. i dun even need to worry how or try hard to makes new fren.. but God given me a bunch of frens there.. cause i pray that.. "God, i willing to surrender all my worries, sadness and problems to You, i know You will sympathy me and be wif me forever.. only You will never leave me alone"

Therefore, wif God's sympathy to me, i never felt alone.. because of Jesus Christ.. i love you Jesus, really do.. i wish i can know u more better and be a good christian.. sorry for all my sins that i did.. thanks God.. really thanks.. ^^

first day learning swimming

tuesday, i wake up late today..!! haha rush to take my breakfast and hit to college.. b4 i going out to college.. i received a call.. from dk oh.. he said he is outside my house now =.=" then he said he pass by my house so juz come my house and lend a dvd from me and take back his memory card reader.. coz he need it oh.. hehe so ngam.. if he late 5 minutes.. i already out for college.. haha so he also pay a visit to our son, spiky[my puppy bought by him] haha i saw both of them so happy playing around wif each other.. me this mom see edi also feel happy lor.. anyway, after i pass the things to him.. and hug back my little spiky.. suddenly i feel dk wan to say something.. so i juz ask.. anything to tell me huh? so he asked me.. this thurs free ma? we go nite market together.. hehe sure i say yes lor.. and i really feel very very happy ^^

hmm dunno leh.. first time got this feeling.. that he is so polite to me.. asking me out so gently haha.. yea lar.. we r not couple anymore.. thats why.. i also dunno wan to happy or sad ah he so gentle wif me haha.. anyway, from his eyes.. i really saw he is missing me so much.. but he juz cant speak out.. hehe i understand ^^

today after class.. i pick up isa from pyramid.. and as our plan.. we went swimming at summit 3k there.. haha this is the first time i went there.. introduce by georyn de.. so me n isa blur blur.. 2 ppl go inside the building and we get in to the wrong entrance.. so pai seh.. haha.. so after we wore our swimming suit.. we get into the water.. gosh.. the water are so cold..!! mayb i very long nvr get into the pool edi haha.. luckily the pool is indoor.. so we still can swim although outside is raining haha so isa started teaching me basic.. finally, i can float on the surface and try swimming wif "frog" style.. it is very hard for me.. cause i have water phobia since i was a small gurl.. so is quite hard for me to overcome it haha.. so i feel very nervous inside the pool.. and drank alot of klorin water =.=" so we swim around 2 hours.. but unfortunately.. i still can't master it.. but at least i know the style and how to swim it wif leg and hand hahaha but juz cant balance well.. lol..

when we swim for the last round and going to hav a change.. we saw few youngster there.. hmm around my age? i not sure.. but at first.. wat make me scare is.. some of them talk to themselve loudly.. or doing some weird action in the pool.. and then i saw a few adult there taking care them.. after our observation.. only we know that those youngster are mentally retarded.. when they get off the pool.. got one of them run away from his guider.. then those adult immediately catch him up to calm him down i think =.=" hey, we are not discriminate la.. juz dunno wat they will do to us suddenly if we stay near them.. so we swim away from them lor.. juz protecting ourselve.. aiks.. so sorry..
so we get off from the water.. take bath.. then hitting back home lor..

really feel very nice after swim.. very comfort oh haha.. tired also.. we will go again next time very soon..!! =p for my second lesson..!! haha gambateh mel mel ^^

first day of class @ 2008

now having i stomach pain =.=" dunno whats wrong again =.=" sob

finally..!! class started today.. having f5 paper.. hmm is a very new subject in ACCA syllabus.. hehe but i still feel challenging.. hmm mayb is good to learn more about finance ^^ so my lecturer for this paper is ms. voon sia.. at first i tot i will attend the class alone.. but really thx God coz got i meet my few fren there ^^ opss.. f6 paper.. im quite sure i will be alone in f6 class >< so sad.. hehe nvm lar.. still have to cope wif it.. gambateh mel mel ^^

so today class was ok larr.. at first quite boring wan.. and then second part of class was fine ^^ voon sia did told some jokes haha.. let me tell u bout this..

"she said she met a retired secondary school teacher.. and the women was very talkactive when at the gathering dinner.. and voon sia did asked the teacher.. 'what's your unforgetable moments when u are teaching at the school?' it means.. wat makes her impress alot..
and then the women answer.. there was one year.. she been post to the naughtiest class.. and also the worst class.. she had a syok but no choice to accept the offer.. so she started her teaching.. the teaching was quite bad because she receive no respond from students haha
one day, the women was told that there will be a inspector coming to her class and inspect students' learning process.. the women was having a headache about this and very fast.. she got an excellent idea..!! haha the women went back the class and tell the students that an inspector is coming in to inspect them.. so she ask the students to behave properly.. do not fall sleep.. keep quiet..!! whenever she ask a question.. students muz raise hand..!! haha

and then got a students ask her.. teacher, wat if we dunno the answer? then she answer, whoever dunno the answer.. juz close ur eye when u raise ur hand.. [inspector is sitting behind them, inspector will nvr know] haha so, finally, inspector came in..!! and sitted nicely behind the students.. so the women continue her teaching very nicely, students became so quiet, silent and listen to teacher's lecture.. so, is the time for question answering.. the women asked a question.. surprisingly, everyone raise their hand..!! but all wif eye close..!! haha suddenly, the class rep open his eyes, because of sampat, wan to see everyone eye izzit closing.. the women saw the class rep wif eyes open, and then choose him to answer.. haha the class rep came out a wrong answer..! lol but nvm, fine.. so the women asked second question, very easy question.. 'where's the town centre of thailand?' everyone also raising their hand, but some wif eyes open, some wif eyes close.. and there have a guy students... very confidently keep pointing to himself.. so the teacher choose him to answer.. and the guy proudly answer 'KUALA LUMPUR!!' hahaha then the students sit beside the guy.. push the guy and say softly, wei.. is BANGKOK la..!! haha then the guy said.. oh sorry teacher.. is BANGKOK..!! pai seh la, suddenly say wrong only.. i know wan..!! haha..

so when the class end, the inspector come to the women and tell her.. ' i didnt ever seen such a good teacher like you..!! u did make ur students fully respond and fully concentrate on ur lecture.. and they all really impressed by ur lecture..!! u did a very good job..!!'
haha the lecturer was so syok and damn happy.."
wat to do, haha sometimes human have to do this =p

moral of the story, u can raise hand without knowing the answer.. but wif eyes close..!! =p

LOL, so whole class are keep laughing for this joke.. and we really enjoyed the last part of our class ^^ hehe i teached by voon sia before.. she is quite a nice teacher to get along wif ^^ so, a good start.. and wish everydays will be nice too ^^ thanks God ..!! ^^

i feeling much better now ^^

hehe me again..!! bluek.. today after church.. i fetch jeannie back.. she is my churchmate.. hehe then we got talk about my break up wif my ex.. and she cry before me =.=" haha she so cute la.. very easy get impressed by me.. haha then ya lar.. i got cry.. not much la.. she cry more la duh haha

then i go sleep when back home lor.. so tired..!! mayb used to sleep many hours in one day edi haha.. holiday virus.. lol.. tmr.. eh no.. is later.. 8am is my first class >< sob.. i know i shud be sleeping edi haha.. so juz now i wake up around 7pm.. then go take dinner then watch tv.. lol really like pig lar.. haha then suddenly i heard a very familiar ring tone..!! is caller ring tone of my ex boy.. ouch..!! he called me..!! haha i so happy then run to my room and talk to him on phone lor..

so actually he had a bad day today.. have a very big arguement wif his mom.. also facing the first failure for his business.. i know it is hurt.. so i quietly listen everything he said lor.. actually i felt so happy cause he still share his sadness wif me.. he still will think of me when he need someone.. he talk alot alot lor.. then suddenly he ask about wat ashley said about our break up.. actually ashley is my coursemate.. who keep helping me n him in our relationship.. really thanks her very much hehe.. then talk talk talk.. suddenly talk bout our feeling.. i told him all my feeling.. i told him i still miss him.. but dun worry.. i still accept.. but when i do anything or go anywhere.. i sure saw his shadow in everywhere.. because mayb me n him had walk through many in our relationship.. then he also said he felt that too.. and he actually still missing me.. but we have to be strong.. and he keep asked me to give him time.. and say sorry for wat he did this time.. its prove that.. he still can't put me down.. i know that..

and he also tell me that.. he know he can giv me a very gud life in the future.. and he will come back to me and we will walk together for the rests of our life.. hehe funny huh? mayb ppl will say this is juz "sweet words" .. but then i really feel better.. cause im right..!! cause i alwayz blive we still loving each other.. and this prove me right.. =)

so i tell him dun worry.. i will be strong.. im melody ma hehe.. so no matter how hard.. i will still walk .. although we broke up.. but we will alwayz stay beside each other and support each other ^^ so im telling myself.. stop emo..!! mel..!! haha something muz see wider.. okie lar.. i go sleep oh.. nite nitez ^^ thanks God..!

mel feeling emo these day ^^ sry

hmm.. today is 5th of jan.. the third day i broke up wif him hehe i still rmb we broke up at 12am 3rd of jan.. that we talked on the phone for 2 hours plus.. hehe

so he became my gud fren for now.. i admit i still very miss him.. missing the time he alwayz call me after work.. call me b4 sleep.. we joke.. we are so sweet.. hehe but i know i have to accept it.. even i hav to tahan n tell myself not to call him if nothing.. coz last time i will call him if i miss him but is for nothing.. i will still wearing the ring he bought for me.. that day i went pub wif him.. i still saw he is still wearing im happy.. or he juz didnt realized the ring? haih i also duwan to think so much.. i saw the bear he gave me for anniversary also.. im still hugging the bear.. but he is no-longer for me to hug.. haih it makes me think alot bout last time.. im still that love him.. i still feel happy, hang fuk and sweet when wif him.. but why he feel differently.. i dunno wat to say bout this..

actually also have to thanks my fren alot alot.. they know i broke up wif frens.. they support me.. somemore even say treat me nice nice de lunch hehe.. yam cha wif me.. go out wif me.. talk wif me more.. accept my emotional chit chat these day hehe so sry to my fren.. but i really appreciate alot.. they really cheer my days.. but everytime when i come back wif myself alone.. i will think bout him again.. how wish he is still there wif me.. but i alwayz controling myself.. i wish i could.. my fren tell me it takes time.. yeah i know.. but is really hard.. really hard.. i still miss him alot.. thats why i do so much thing to cover my sadness.. i duwan to let myself so free and think bout him all the time.. i shud take up the broke up although i dun wish to.. so fast.. so short.. actually i dunno wat to write.. but i juz feel like posting about this.. i wan to remember my feeling at the time i break up wif him..

i still rmb we did cried.. but we did laugh.. we did joke.. we did happen to an agreement.. we are gud fren .. hehe until now, i still alwayz wish that he will realized one day, how important is me for him.. but if it doesnt? hehe so i know i shud not put any hope inside.. shud not hurt myself more.. i juz know i really miss him.. really wish to get his call.. really wish to hear his words that he still miss me.. he need me.. but im telling myself.. stop lie-ing to myself..

i really still rmb the time we planned for our future.. our everything.. house.. car.. kids.. family.. hehe sound funny huh? but i really feel hang fuk when talking bout this to him.. cause i know he is a guy that serious to the future.. but now i have to rub off those dream wif him.. im really sad.. really sad.. really disappointed.. yeah i tot.. why i can love someone forever.. but not someone loving me forever.. no doubt.. live happily ever after.. mayb thats my fate.. no.. i shud not say thats fate.. cause i still blive i will have my true love.. yeah.. for now, i wish it is still him.. hmm.. many fren tell me that mayb i can find a better one in the future.. who noes.. and juz let it be.. for me, i still wish he will find me back and give me the hang fuk life he promise last time.. gosh.. dun lie urself already mel.. plz stop it..

i know he also felt sad bout our break up.. but he choose to do so.. for me, if he feel better if we break up.. so i will respect him.. my fren tell me.. duwan let myself to regret in the future.. make sure wats my feeling.. im very sure that i will regret if i didnt happen to couple wif him again in the future.. cause my love to him still so strong.. never fade before.. but i have no choice to break up wif him now.. i can't express my love to him.. only can express here.. or juz say.. keep to myself.. ... ... ... juz have to admit.. i dunno wat he really wants.. wat he thinking already.. im so disappointed of myself..

mayb until now.. is to be continue.. i juz dunno wat to write again hehe.. will continue when my feeling come hehe.. thx for reading my words, fren.. love u all ^^ yeah, im the person who hate loneliness.. but now mayb i will face it.. but i have to accept.. i know ^^ i can stand up for myself.. continue my study n my life very very nicely ^^

i really miss him.. ~cry~

zoo negara !!!

haha.. we went to zoo negara..!!! mel, isa, yew, pin.. 4 crazy stupid gurl gurl and boy boy went to zoo.. long time nvr went there b4..!! i dun even rmb how is zoo negara haha.. only isa went there damn many time.. so can be our map in zoo =p not bad not bad haha



this is before we went out.. in my room.. taking picture before going out =p nice leh haha

and juz.. today.. i got a very good suggestion haha.. why dun isa u drive? lol and then i let her drive my car haha.. actually damn worry wan.. but muz let her try n drive more..!! if not.. dunno wan wait until when only she can come fetch me =.=" haha u c.. how tention is she..!! haha

this pic also taken in the car.. yew driving..!! haha thats wat guy shud do =p
before zoo.. we went to have our breakfast at oug.. haha nice "pan mee" ^^

since we are not driving.. so this is our job [ photo taking ] =p

this is me and yap pin.. outside the zoo!! haha.. all of us vote me and yap pin as best "zoo" look's boy and gurl haha ^^

haha this is me and isa lor.. no need say liau lor.. everyone know we are sweettttt =p haha bluek

zoo entrance fees costs us rm15..!! gosh.. we have to fully utilise it wif taking alot of pic..!! haha

this is our first station.. giraffe =p did i spell correctly? haha

gosh man.. how cute is the giraffe..!! damn innocent look haha.. i love it..!!

this is me n isa.. haha at the birds park.. scary u know.. i scare the bird will suddenly come to me and have a bite on my leg =.=" thats why i look so stunt hahaha

lol.. dark dark.. but nice.. wif another species of big birds..!! haha anyway.. they sream very funny..

sot sot wey yew wif a big big turtle..!! haha omg.. it really climb damn slow..!! haha

yay..!! group photo..!! haha 4 of us.. wey yew taking the camera.. lol thats why his face is the biggest..!! lol we are riding the "tu tu train" haha damn windy.. nice ^^

haha this is the funniest part..!! the ape inside so so so photogenic.. haha and likes to play wif us.. haha saw us taking his photo.. then he swing here and there.. then look at the camera lol.. so playful.. so active..!! so cute..!! haha

this is when yap pin put his hand on the glass.. u know wat..!! haha the apes take out his touges and do "neh neh neh neh neh" hahahaha so funny man.. lol they really like human.. and we also have a visit at the monkey cage.. lol so cute.. when u shout at him.. he come near u.. take out his hand.. and ask for food.. lol.. damn cute man.. haha

unfortunately.. penguin house is stated as "improvement in progress" gosh.. i want to see penguin..!! dun have penguin =.=" we are so disappointed ah.. but wat to do.. somemore we went to the aquarium.. gosh man.. zoo aquarium really cacat.. u went.. u will know =.="

haha anyway.. although it is very sunny day.. but we are still enjoyed..!! haha we will come back to zoo mayb in the next 5 years haha.. bluek..

yday went pub wif frens ^^

yday i went pub wif frens at clear, mont kiara.. hehe not bad oh.. is dk introduce de.. cause our fren [fei mao] work at there as bartender hehe.. so yeng oh him..!! actually we have this appointment is cause of doing a farewell for yap pin.. he is going back to US on next tues hehe.. we will be very miss him ^^

haha i went there wif yunn, dk, yew, pin, leslie.. open few jar of tiger beer and chit chat there haha.. really enjoy there.. laugh until so loud.. somemore stand up and dance dance dance haha.. so crazy oh.. when we are too excited in drinking.. we talk many crazy topic.. about our secret.. ex-school life.. first love.. lol alot man.. and also took many stupid photo ^^


LOL.. this really "gik ban" haha i mean.. very hard to get this pic de.. to have a guy btw us.. not because he is so precious.. is juz he take in gurls toilet hahaha..

gosh.. are we really a drinker? haha no no no.. we are still a very gentle gurl haha.. but juz crazying for tonight =p means we are damn sporting uh =p

alright.. this pic are so sweet..!! haha a sweet drinker uh?? =p

this pic juz contain a part of us.. me, dk, yunn, leslie.. haha pin and yew taking the pic for us ^^

haha we enjoyed alot.. and went back about 1 something from there.. after that we went to yam cha lor.. dk n leslie cant follow us cause they have to wake up early for work..!! hehe so pity..

hmm.. when we yam cha-ing at mamak.. i received a phone call that cheer me alot.. mayb for him is a very simple call.. but i still very happy cause he still know im still care for him.. cause i get his call when he reached his home safely.. and then he asking where am i.. so we have a very nice talk.. we laugh.. im happy that this still happened after we broke up.. hmm.. i admit i really miss him alot.. but i have to face this reality that im already single for now.. in the phone call.. he still talk wif me like we talked last time.. joke on me.. play a fool on me hehe.. im so happy.. and i know he still care for me.. i wish he still miss me alot ^^ i really wish he will realized my position in his heart one day.. but all this juz my wish.. i cannot expect alot.. i know ..

so after yam cha.. isa went back home wif me and stay overnite.. i still msg him to tell him i safely reached home.. i really do mean it.. i wish he will understand ^^

i broke up wif him

hehe everyone, i broke up wif him.. hehe
if for last time.. it may be a very big news for myself.. but then now.. mayb i already prepared for it.. so i accept it nicely ^^ sure got sad lor.. but then i can control myself hehe.. my ex-boy also say i very different liau.. look like big gurl edi hehe..

we broke up not wif hates not wif arguement.. we explain n discuss nicely and we know we shud face it.. hmm.. wat problem? haha long story lar.. we still remain very gud fren now.. will accompany each other pass through hard period.. still sharing our happiness and sadness.. hehe.. and we will concentrate on our business.. we have to grow up hehe.. shud not "toh toh lai lai" .. i mean.. not put the prob aside and dun care.. shud have settle it.. so to make the hurt lesser hehe.. wondering why i still hehe here? hehe no lar.. juz i know i have to face it and accept it.. as my ex-boy said.. dun see this until so serious.. try to take it easy.. and we will get use to it better hehe.. i will try my best okie ^^

i admit we both also very sad for this break up.. me n him also cried.. and i rmb he said one sentence.. actually we are looking forward to our future.. that's also why we broke up for now hehe.. yeah, he did said he wish to be wif me in the future.. but we know no one can guarantee this.. i know he love me.. only he will bring me to see his future house.. we went to ikea to plan the furniture.. and do alot things like matured couple will do.. and also only he will really face it and explain to me.. talk to me nicely.. but not run away from this matter and do like not responsible for our relationship.. he said im the best gurl fren he nvr had.. and for we have pass through so many things.. we sure wont forget each other.. hehe he alwayz wish that we will get back together in the future.. but i know he duwan i put so much hope on it ^^

anyway.. haha i talked to him on the phone for 2 hours plus.. and we end the conversation nicely.. yeah sure mm seh tak.. but have to accept ^^ he keep saying sorry to me.. hehe why shud he ler.. he shud not put all the blame on him.. hehe thanks God i still can obtain a smile on my face.. hehe muaxx everyone..!!

nitez

my boy and I on yday nite

ahh.. now i wanna write something about yday nite hehe.. very chi kek.. but fun haha

yday nite my parents went to relative house for dinner.. left me at home.. and then my bf come and accompany me at home lor.. actually my parents dun let i having a relationship while im studying rite now.. so is so sorry to my bf that he have to hide from my parents..
for the common expectation, my parents wont be back so soon.. so i told him dun worry haha.. but then we also prepared if my parents came back suddenly haha..

who noes.. SUDDENLY.. i heard someone open the gate.. gosh..!! i saw my mom haha.. then i shout to him.. ehh my parents came back edi..!! then he still lye on the sofa and dun listen wat im saying.. he tot i lie to him.. only wan to giv a syok to him haha.. but then i talk more seriously.. REALLY BACK EDI..!! haha he faster wake up.. then run up to my room haha..

no choice.. he have to hide inside my room haha.. then when i go inside my room.. i saw him sitting on my bed and "merajuk" hahaha.. i laugh only.. and say.. sorry lor.. how i know haha.. so wait my parents back only let u go lor hahaha.. then he "merajuk" and say he wan eat.. so i go take some cheese cake for him lor.. he somemore wan i feed..!!! then i feed lorrr.. coz i make him have to stuck in my room hahaha..

then i went down chit chat wif my parents lor.. [have to] haha.. then when i come up my room again.. i saw him fully cover by my comforter and slept on my bed haha.. he scare my mom suddenly open my door ma haha funny.. luckily i have a habit that i alwayz lock up my door lor.. so is safe la haha.. after that my mom went to sleep edi.. then dad still watching football.. then i ask him duwan sleep ah.. he said he wan to finished the football haha.. then i go up and tell my boy lor.. my dad wanna finished the football that JUZ STARTED FOR 3 MINUTES haha.. he "fainted" liau.. lol so i teman him sleep lor.. u c i so gud =p
i have to treat him gud ah hehe.. coz really happy that he can understand n cause of me.. hide from my parents.. i really appreciate it.. i know at first he mind lor.. but he said he dun mind edi and he used to it.. really thx him ah.. a guy have to hide in my room.. but not saying hi to my parents.. i feel so sorry to him.. but anyway.. i know he love me..

actually something happen when we are sleeping.. [dun think so much =p] he ah.. dunno why.. like have a bad dream or wat.. few times.. he move his hand like gonna punch me.. he feel very hot and keep moving his body.. turn around.. suddenly like grab my hair like that.. so scary.. this is the first time happened to him as i sleep many time wif him before.. i ask him izzit anything.. then he has no respond.. haih then i juz didnt ask edi lor.. but im worrying him.. cause doctor say he alwayz not enuff rest.. makes me so worry..

then he go off very smoothly lor.. open my door very slowly n quietly haha.. and then we have a gud nite sleep ^^ haha
wat an adventure nite i have.. lol